It’s been some time since I’ve been up to writing due to the tremendous amount of stress that I have been dealing with because of being too far in debt in the home, that I myself on disability cannot afford to maintain and with other people that live here misappropriating funds this doesn’t help.
I’m almost ashamed of starting a “go fund me” there’s so many scams there’s so many people out asking for money and really good causes but I told myself that there is nothing wrong with trying it out and failing than even try it at all.
I wish I could honestly say things have been better but in all reality my life has always been a mess. Started as a child, victim of abuse and then continually escalated. And at some point we all make our own choices and do us!
I’ve managed in the three years being divorced to get the whole drinking and pills out of my system once and for all.
And have learned all sorta of new things like communication, confronted my drinking and pills. Controlling my temper, humility.
But at the end of the day I’m still empty and lonely inside. Kind of hard to put in words.
I just know something has got to give and soon.