Shit hole in a crack!

I know, I know, I just have the feeling I’m the most talked about person in this little shit hole town in Oregon. Obviously these kind of people haven’t been in the real world for some time, trapped in their little backwards town. Ha! Ya’all Didn’t see me coming hmm….lol And hella to the mo fo NO, I ain’t leaving! You push, I’ll push harder…. Yeah yeah, I know, in the end we’ll see who pushed harder! That’s so funny even saying that because I’ve pushed since I dropped into this shit hole crack in the state and no one will dictate to menor define my world. I’ve got just as much right as any other individual in this entire state!!

It really is hilarious how so many people let their fear of the unknown scare them into so many twisted ideas and opinions a need even behavior. I say….. I’m just another gal, luck rocks, step!



Christmas hasn’t been merry since I was that little boy that Grandpa played Santa for with the entire family gathered next to the tree at auntie’s house. A Bright and Decorated tree filled with mountains of gifts underneath, Grandpa calling each of our names giving gifts, as well as the family unity and love that was displayed well into the new year. And well into all year long. Every Christmas since those days has been an unsuccessful attempt to duplicate a very simple memory from a very young boy abandoned to the ward of the state at the age of 11 and a constant reminder of four decades trying to be apart of the very loved ones world, I only knew as a child. Christmas really is just another day for me to use, as everyday, a means to define who I am, what I believe and what I will and will not accept in my life as I continue to define it. Honestly other than the food and the fact that my boyfriend doesn’t have to work for a week it’s really not different than any other day. It really takes more than one day out of the year to be merry. Real life is hard and you have to work at it to be happy. I don’t want the yearly Christmas card attached with simple tradition and no love attached to it. It doesn’t mean anything to me! but I do wish everyone a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New year because I will. And have started my New year already, as always I am ahead of myself. So I say “give Christmas to the children” it’s the only Merry Christmas they’re going to have unless they are successful young adults and grow up and create a family for themselves and they make themselves a Merry Christmas!